Many people are probably wondering what happened in my whole BSSM journey and why I chose it in the first place. Coming back home from almost a year in Bethel is like waking up from a really long dream. A dream where anything can happen. Seeing impossibilities unfold before my very eyes. Almost like a glimpse of heaven on earth too good to be true.
Except, it was…remarkably.
A dream transpired in reality, immeasurably all I asked or ever imagined. It was a dream divinely orchestrated that even if I got weaved back into the same old ordinary life, I am not the same, forever changed. Awaken into a mundane reality with an extraordinary hope, a renewed version of myself – spirit, soul and body, and new eyes to see the world from a different perspective. What would have taken years to rebuild, mend and revive God made up for it and did it in the whole 10 months being in the school of ministry. I may not have gotten out with a degree that would create a title for me in this world but all the rewards I have received are eternal and intangible. All the training and knowledge gained are essential for living everyday no matter where I am at in life. Sometimes God opens a door where there has not been any, or at least from our limited perspective. Sometimes all it takes for us to access our inheritance from heaven is a willingness to obey and a surrendered heart motivated by love. Even when we do not completely understand it yet.
The thing is, I did not initially choose to do first year in BSSM. I had a different plan in mind. I was about to apply in a different art school. But He knew better. In His gracious and loving way, God led me to this school from this church where I knew so little about except for their life-changing music. I had nothing when I said yes to diving into a year in a country literally on the other side of my world. No visa and savings to sustain my living expenses and tuition fee for the school. If I had anything at all I would say the only two things I carried were faith in the God of the impossible and a hunger to know more and encounter this God in a much more intimate way.
I learned that these two are actually keys to stepping into God’s heart unlocking a road less traveled which ultimately leads us closer to our purpose and destiny. These enabled me to push through impossibilities where means are beyond my capacity. I miraculously got my visa out of weak documents and more than half of my tuition fee was completely paid for by an anonymous donor the day of my deadline. Living expenses provided for just right when I needed it. I wish I can make this sound less spiritual but the only way all these happened was literally because of God Himself. He moved flawlessly where I saw impossibilities. I had nothing but faith that He is good and a hunger to seek who He is deeper as He introduced His nature and character to me in such an intentional way.
Realistically, we live in a dark world, filled with death, hatred and brokenness. However, this reality should compel us to be caught up in our divine purpose why we are still here in this world rather than just the problems. We are called not to just merely exist but to live abundantly and beyond. I discovered in my journey in BSSM keys on how our lives can be an opportunity for the world to encounter Love thus transforming this world into one of life, love and wholeness. A unique commissioning into my rightful destiny.
Many are invited but few are crazy enough to say yes to God and forge a path for other people to follow. To find these fellow sojourners from all walks of life and nations in this school of ministry adventure with the same passion and hunger encouraged me that I was not the only one.
All this to testify that you are not alone when you decide to embark on uncharted waters because there is a God who will fight your dreams with you and for you behind the scenes where no one can see. Just believe and stay hungry.
We were like those who dream.
The Lord has done great things for us,
And we are glad.
**testimony of a first year BSSM graduate (2015-2016) For more story feature please read: